But wait, there’s more

This is getting more and more difficult to explain.

Imagine yourself as a ball of power. In this ball are all the infinite moments of your existence in this lifetime. Extending from that ball are connective links to all of the people, places, things, animals, etc. that you have encountered during this lifetime, and these lines connect to the balls of power which are those things, people, etc. Now, within this ball which is you are also all of your incarnations. This means that the concept of the ball as you, expands even further. Connected to this ball which is you and all of your incarnations is another ball, your Neshamah (it’s not actually connected as it is the ball, but trying to explain in words is not easy). Each person has a Neshamah connected to them, but the Higher Self or Soul is again split into three parts, the Neshamah, the Chiah and the Yehidah.

So now, expand your view from the You Ball up to your Neshamah and then take a group of people, let’s say a family, your family. All of the members of your family have their own ball of power containing all of their moments, experiences, etc. and incarnations of same. Each person has a Neshamah, and all of those Neshamah are connected by the Chiah. Expand that further to contain all the Chiah of a nation and you have another Chiah. Put them all together and you have the Yehidah which then unites all.

But now remember that the Neshamah is only part of the soul belonging to people. We also have the plants, animals and all of the other things of creation. Uniting all of this is God, the Primal Force, the Everything and No-Thing, the Universal Mind, The ALL.

And now that I explained this as best I can in the format of a network, remove the network and bring it all into one ball of power that is infinite, has no boundaries (and is therefore not actually a ball).

Published in: on January 14, 2011 at 11:39 am  Leave a Comment  

Reality and the Gods

This happened on Wednesday night:

I thought I would share a lesson I was given last night by the kaneh-bos ally. It has to do with Reality being made up of moments that all happen within the same instance, lateral time as opposed to our man made linear time. For a brief moment I experienced this Reality, only a portion of it though, but I knew in that moment I would not be able to experience it when I came back to normal every day life, it is just too big. Anyway, for those interested, this is the imagery that I was presented with.

Each second is a moment on a card, and there are multiple cards. we experience each moment all at once, but our attention in our conscious mind is only on one, which was lit up. Our attention obviously moves around from moment to moment. Now, that is each second, so between those seconds, you have to split up the moment more into nanoseconds, making thousands of cards from second to second, and then split it up even further into an infinite number of cards or moments, beyond human reasoning or calculation. Then expand that over an entire lifetime and you have the bigger picture. We live within all of the cards in the same instance. Then remember that is only one person, from specific cards/moments, other things branch off to form the experiences of other people, animals, things, places, etc. It’s huge, and it all takes place in the same instance as one large body.

(Today that view has been expanded more. The ally of the plant is working.)

My perception of the Universe keeps expanding as I get shown more. For instance, who are the Gods? Let’s take this back a little and explain the HGA, or in Kabbalistic terms, the Neshamah.

The Neshamah is the Higher Self of a person. This portion of our soul is that part which is immortal. As we incarnate through different life times, we forget the previous ones in order to experience the new one. The Neshamah on the other hand does not die, is not born and retains the experiences of all of those lifetimes.

When we speak of the Gods we may think of them as sentient beings or archetypes. In retrospect, both are correct in my view. We work with the Gods, or petition them to aid in our work to affect something of ourselves or our environment. If we want love, we go to a certain god or goddess, if we want money, we go to a different one, each of them having aspects that we require, almost like job titles. You would not go to a plumber to get your electricity fixed, and you would not go to a “god of money” to get love in your life.

Now, each person we encounter has their own aspects and personalities, experiencing this reality in their own manner, their own job titles as it were. Their Neshamah is therefore experiencing that aspect of life and adding it to the experiences of its previous incarnations. We speak of the Gods as being immortal and having more experience, which is the same as the Neshamah. It would stand to reason that the possibility exists that the Gods are in fact the Higher Selves of all the people on the planet.

Published in: on January 14, 2011 at 11:12 am  Leave a Comment  

Oil of AbraMelin Findings

2011/01/04 05:24 PM

I was doing some research on Sacred Plants, specifically cannabis at the time and came across some very curious information. Firstly a little background, and then we’ll get to the curious part.

Oil of AbraMelin, which modern magicians use in ritual and ceremony to anoint, is derived from the Holy Oil of Tanakh. This Holy Oil, mentioned in Exodus, was only used to anoint Holy Men and Kings, and by being anointed made them Christs (the anointed ones). When Jesus came along, being the rebel he is, he decided to take the Holy Oil and anoint everyone who wanted to be anointed. He used it to heal, to drive out demons and bring God to the people. This was against the law of the Hebrews which stated that for someone to use on those which are not allowed it would set that person apart. Christ, his disciples and followers were indeed set apart, and Christianity was borne out through the ages with Gnosticism sticking to some more original material. Christianity means “to be smeared or anointed with Holy Oil”.

So what is this Holy Oil (now for the curious part)? In Exodus we might find the ingredients to be myrrh, aromatic cane, cinnamon, cassia and olive oil, but it is the aromatic cane that has created the most curiosity as it is not translated properly. The Hebrew gives it as Kaneh-bosm with the ‘m’ at the end of a word indicating a large quantity, so singularly it would be Kaneh-bos. This word has been translated as being calamus, which sounds almost right (where Crowley got galangal from I don’t know). However, it has been speculated that calamus is also a mistranslation. The correct translation for Kaneh-bos should actually be cannabis (say kaneh-bos fast 10 times, you’ll understand why).

What does this mean for Christianity? I hate to say it folks, but it possibly means that Christianity was borne out of a culture that used cannabis to reach divine and ecstatic heights or enlightenment.

For a much more detailed explanation on the subject, read this extremely interesting article – Cannabis and the Christ: Jesus used Marijuana | Cannabis Culture Magazine

Published in: on January 4, 2011 at 6:23 pm  Leave a Comment  

Happy New Year

And a new year begins. This one will be full of upliftment and great success for everyone.

Last night, I finished the last day of speaking to my Nefesh in the mirror, so now we move on to allowing my Nefesh to speak to me in my dreams. I have never been one to remember dreams so although I will be keeping a pen and paper next to my bed, I am a little concerned the results will not be as good as I would like them to be, but we will see. I will also continue to do the journeys to the Temple now.

Published in: on January 1, 2011 at 6:09 am  Comments (5)  

2010/12/26 11:29 AM

From The Teachings of don Juan

“This is not a joke. You must wait until there is no doubt, and then you will meet him.”

“Do I have to prepare myself?”

“No. You simply have to wait. You may give up the whole idea after a while. You get tired easily. Last night you were ready to quit as soon as it got difficult. Mescalito requires a very serious intent.”

This is a problem I have and one that I think many of us do. If we don’t get results in 10 minutes, we give up, let alone trying for hours.

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2010/12/26 09:20 AM

I took the day off yesterday, from everything. I realised this morning I shouldn’t have though. The Work should have continued in some form.

However, the practice has developed and is being shaped into what it should be. It has been greatly simplified and some of the original methods I intended to include have been eliminated. At this point, the following is what I have been guided to do:


  1. Mother Breath
  2. Breathing the Universal Element with inclusion of Desire Inhalation and Prayer
  3. Stillness Meditation


  1. Mother Breath
  2. Tuning and toning
  3. Overtoning
  4. Body of Light
  5. Journey to Temple
  6. Work at Temple
  7. Return


  1. Reread Castaneda’s books
  2. Accomplish Quantum Leaping
  3. Establish proper connection with Nefesh
Published in: on December 28, 2010 at 9:21 am  Leave a Comment  

2010/12/24 09:16 PM

I forgot something from a previous encounter and experience in the Temple. Whilst considering the concept of ourselves being cut off from the Power, needing to move to the Centre, I found myself in a skin, like a bubble, needing to break through. This bubble was my reality, my consensual reality, and if I broke out of it, I would experience the ALL. My thoughts led me back to Castaneda, and the remark I made was, “Castaneda was right.” Although people tend to disregard CC as a fraud, claiming he made the whole thing up and don Juan Matus never existed, I personally don’t give a damn. Whether the tales in the books are true or not, the information that is presented is so vitally important that it cannot be ignored. If DJ never existing and CC made it all up, then the information was put together by CC, and that information, whether it is a multitude of spiritual beliefs from all systems or not, is very interesting.

I have therefore started reading CC’s books again and will probably relate to sections of them and lift quotes throughout this Journal.

From The Teaching of don Juan
Para mi solo recorrer
los caminos que tienen corazon,
cualquier camino que tenga corazon.

Por ahi yo recorro,
y la unica prueba que vale es
atravesar todo su largo.

Y por ahi yo recorro mirando,
mirando, sin aliento.

* * *

(For me there is only the travelling
on paths that have heart,
on any path that may have heart.

There I travel,
and the only worth-while challenge is
to traverse its full length.

And there I travel looking,
looking, breathlessly.)

– Don Juan Matus

“Don’t get me wrong, don Juan,” I protested. “I want to have an ally, but I also want to know everything I can. You yourself have said that knowledge is power.”

“No!” he said emphatically. “Power rests on the kind of knowledge one holds. What is the sense of knowing things that are useless?”

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2010/12/24 08:10 PM

The conversation with my Nefesh started last night. It seems for the first week I am to make this connection and work with the Nefesh before going back to the Temple. Some things did come out of my morning prayer and the conversation this evening. An interesting concept of performing Quantum Leaping to a parallel life that you want to share the energy of, and then doing Identification. Problem I had was that Identification is performed with the Nefesh entering the Nefesh of the object you are Identifying with. It would make sense that all of the parallel lives that we may have share the same Nefesh, but I had a bit of a conflict with that also.

After speaking with my Nefesh it seems that it is the Neshamah that is the Puppet Master and each parallel life has its own Ru’ach and Nefesh, therefore jumping into the Nefesh of a parallel life is quite possible, without the difficulty of jumping into yourself or your Nefesh trying to jump into itself, which would just be convoluted.

After the Identification process, the two lives would be joined and sharing energy, so you would be plugged into the energy and persona of the parallel life. This could cause some problems. If you jump into the parallel life and not jump out again, two things would happen, or might happen. Firstly you would share all of that life’s personality traits, so you may become a little schizo, and also, your body would tire as your Nefesh is out. It would need to be a temporary connection. On the other hand, once you have Identified with an object, even once you jump out, you still share a very strong and personal bond, but maybe not enough to share a life.

Published in: on December 28, 2010 at 9:19 am  Leave a Comment  

2010/12/23 06:49 AM

Nothing exciting this morning, just the normal meditation and prayer. I will be doing the Nefesh exercise later on as I need to talk to myself in the mirror to begin with and sound carries in here, family still asleep.

Published in: on December 28, 2010 at 9:18 am  Leave a Comment  

2010/12/22 07:46 PM

(Summer Solstice)

A very simple instruction tonight. If I want to have K&C of my HGA, then I need to know my Nefesh better. I thought I did, but obviously not as well as I should. I will be going through the three week process of getting to know my Nefesh, i.e. speak to it with a mirror, listen to it through dream and then communicate with divination. A necessary part in the process in order to retain memory of the conversation with the HGA. I will be doing this in the mornings.

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